i am soo determined. more than ever. i want this soo bad.
heck, i know lifes not fair, but there comes a point in time where its not all about one person. im really trying, but everytime i think im getting somewhere, you turn around and figure out another way to bring me down. i know its not intentional at all and not directed at me, but i always seem to be the one most affected. im doing everything i can, i even talked to you about it. i just want that one moment. its funny how i even walked up to you and had the guts to tell you how i was feeling; not many people do that. im not trying to be all about myself, but when i hear things like that, i know what its all about. am i supposed to sit around and wait for things to come to me, or am i supposed to ask you for them. i've done what i thought was better, and now im just sitting here waiting around. i feel.. i dunno. unappreciated. i really want a chance for myself. i dont want to be a bratty annoying little kid, but i love this. this is what im good at and i do it for the love of it, not because im about myself.
im really trying. i put myself out there, done something i never thought i would do. i failed. i guess thats a sign.
i went for it. i've confronted the problem head on, and im still waiting. i've already let the whole world know how i feel.
please help. im waiting for the right moment. i feel like im waiting forever and nothing's happening....i guess that what being patient is all about.