i'm still sick and i had to call in sick at work for two days in a row (which is not so bad i guess.) Christmas dinner was pretty yummy except for the fact that i had no appetite whatsoever and did not feel like eating anything.
funny story. so my aunt invites one of her coworkers over for our family dinner. OHMYGOSH. he's from France, he loves travelling, he's like twenty-something, he can speak like five million different languages and his name is 'Benoit' (i think thats how you spell it.) But of course, i didn't really dress up or anything and i felt like crap (so i pretty much looked like crap.) of course, he also had a french accent and practically everything he said sounded crazy cool with his accent. and the whole time he was making conversation with my brother. i couldn't stand to look at him in the face because it would probably look like i was staring at him. AND. when i look at people, they usually tell me i look mad (which is understandable; its because of my humongous eyes)
He probably thought i was mental or something because i didn't even touch my food while he was going up for seconds and i was really too lazy to do anything. Then, later on in the night when we dropped him off so he could go home he said bye to everyone and he even remembered my name- and he said it with a french accent. HAH. it kinda reminds me of mr. kelly, during PE. class when he used to make fun of my name and say it with an accent. (for all you st pauls people, you know what im talking about)
that was practically the highlight of my christmas day. pathetic i know.

....why do i always get sick during christmas. omg yesterday my six hour shift took fooorrrreevvverrr to end, and it really doesn't always take that long. first of all i was put in a department i don't even usually work in, second of all my manager wasn't even there; so i could practically do whatever i wanted without anyone checking up on me- haha the joys of working in a humongous departmental store (but of course, knowing me, i did what i was supposed to do and wth frick i didn't even finish everything) i was feeling all weird and cold in the morning, but i chose to go to work and not call in sick. well, no wonder my six hour shift took forever to ennnddd cause i was feeeling so dizzy. seriously, my head was spinning and i could even walk straight and my forehead was hot and i think i even had hot flashes to the point where i was actually sweating. (i mean nobody actually sweats when they're just standing in one spot folding stuff) ANND I REALLY WANTED TO GO HOME. haha the security alarm went off; second day in a row. AND. right now im sitting here all stuffed up with a sore throat...........i hate this.
on a better note, at least the talent show went pretty well. i was kinda pissed that i didn't get to go skating at the oval; instead i had to work. (i wish i could tell my manager that i actually have a life, and that i don't live at the bay) ...and dixie and jess. yay! we did it. haha except for the fact that we kinda sped up, i'm soooo proud of us. i've never sung with a microphone for a show in my entire life. haha and i even remembered to kinda move back from the mic when i went higher. yay me. haha nobody can work a mic like tiffany though. i love her. she's sooo good.

sugar high

ohmygosh. i've been eating soo much sugar today.:/ i ate lauras cookies, a whole pack of famous amos cookies and now i have katies plate of cookies sitting in front of me (of which i have already started eating.)
I'M CRAVING MILK. so badly. i'm one of those people who can directly chug down cups of milk.
im really tempted to ask mr genser for milk right now, but im too scared. oh well. ....

I am soooo NOT superstitious.

well, i remember anna rivera telling me in gr9 that as catholics we are not supposed to believe in horoscopes. ....i am not a superstitious person, and i don't swear my life by them, but every week in the newspaper whatever's predicted for my week always happens. it's actually quite creepy. for example. this week apparently the beginning of the week was supposed to suck, and then it was supposed to get better; im serious. it totally has gotten better:) everything written predicted actually did happen. its sooo weird.:/

my POSITIVE day

today, i finally feel more positive than i've ever felt in a long time.
omg. FINALLY. the soprano 1's got compliments for their part in sanctus. and for once he wasn't picking on me. and we also kinda nailed our 'in remembrance' light part, and he complimented us for that too. AND TIFF & DEE were there too<3 oh, how i miss them ever so much:)

Charlene Leong you are hilarious. ahah
S: omg! tmrs the shamrock tournament. you know what that means; hot seniors
(araujo was standing right there)
C: YEA! at least we'll get some decent men!
HAHA. sooo funny. it was something along the lines of that. but you just haaadddd to bee there.

shoutout to ANNA F.

Foods 11 class was okay. haha mr genser demo-ed pancakes. yummy, they were pretty good:)
I had this deep convo with Anna F. wow. made me realize that i'm not the only one thinking certain things. (i love talking to you. you're so easy to relate to)

omg...french was a bummer. i failed the quiz. like wtfrick. mrs kats thinks i didn't studied. i came in late for school b/c i had a doctors appointment. i get into the classroom im not even there for five minutes and then ...she gives us a quiz. if i just had five minutes maybe i wouldn't have gotten mixed up with the future cond/ant.

english was okay. i guess..HAH. i handed in my project. at least i got that checked off my list.

On another note. me dixie and jess were practicing for the talent show after school. we're making progress....slowly. i hope we do a good job. annd.....while we were there, the boys came in. they listenend to our song. we sang sanctus. then araujo tried to make fun of dixie; he tried to harmonize to our talent show songs.- freaking screwed everything up. i couldn't concentrate after that. oh yeah. and then when i was trying to figure out riffs, he told me to drop my jaw. like wth.- i swear. he's making me feel so bad. cannnnn yooouu pppleeassse compliment me for once. im tired of you telling me what im doing wrong. i can take constructive criticism, but after a whillleee....i hope we have a decent performance. well, actually why am i saying this? i know we're going to do a good job. lately, i've been so used to stating the negative. i'm gonna try to say something positive.

oh yeah. and i was reading courtney's blog.

9:20 PM oh and you know what pisses me off too, not being rewarded for working your fucking ass off so fucking hard, and then get criticized about how you don't work hard enough.
- courtney hui.

I TOTALLY GET THAT.
thankyou courtney for saying it. someone has to say it.

oooooppss..theree goes me trying to be positive. haaahh. whatever.

I'm in your Shadow

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I have no idea if it's just me, but i've been so tired lately. Haven't slept in a while and i feel crappy at school. the only reason i go to school really is for all my friends; they make me happy:) oh and of course for choir.  that makes me happy too. well sometimes...not too much lately i've been doing my best except it feels like you know you're doing your best and nobody can  freakin appreciate it. i give it my all every single day. i always show up. i do all my homework. i practice my music. what more am i supposed to do??