ASHLAND in 6hours 18minutes.

so the grade8 retreat went by pretty fast today! all in all, i think we did a good job:).
however the first thing that happened...disturbed me.

blonde kid (im not posting his name up to save me from embarrassement; im not a cougar, im just stating that 10 years later he wouldn't look as bad): looks at me while im walking around the front area of the retreat room, turns to my brother while they're sitting down, and says, "gorgeous..."
brother: in dismay with an (are you nuts*) look on his face
Me: i saw it happen. my reaction (*wtf.) turn around and distract myself while trying to process the information in my head
a grade 8 just hit on me WTF.
im sure you're all like, "secretly she likes it" but secretly "I DONT!"
............that's soo weird.
excuse me............................im still disturbed.

soo i came home today and asked my brother just to make sure what happened.
me: so what exactly did you he say to you when you sat down?
brother': uhhh...i don't really think you wanna know (*conversation getting awkward).........EWWWWWWWW.
then he told me.. with a crazed look on his face
END OF STORY.
CREEPED ME OUUTT.
OKAY ILL SHUTUP NOW:$

im in love with our new chamber song. it makes me want to cry.
after the SPM retreat, i felt so good and this music just came out at the right time. Its like a release, from misery and you theres a lot of emotion. I dont know why, but this is a song, that i wanna experience "that moment" with....

im leaving for my spm retreat tomorrow:)

i wanna come out of it with a better attitude, and some confidence to do the things i need to do.

here's to hoping that i'll come out of it feeling the same way last year; i felt amazing...apparently that's what a spiritual high feels like

& its times like these, that im glad i have oppurtunities like this:)

pls pray for me.